I stole this headline from Yahoo….It read “The World Gears Up For a Fresh Start For America”. I think that sounds great. Fresh starts…..
This morning I am feeling much more balanced having bawled any and all tears out, slept like a baby (and for the first time since this happened I was able to sleep past 8, and even go back to sleep!), got a shower (a first in 2 days-not too bad I guess), put on a little makeup, slapped on some of my favorite jewelry, and put on my brand spankin’ new TWO BY TWO sarcoma awareness campaign t-shirt. I feel pretty darned good. And this is how I’m going to vote! Another good start to the day. Kurt is taking me, the good bro he is.
I know this is night and day difference on my reflections from last night, but unfortunately, it’s the grieving process. That, and the meds haven’t kicked in yet :).
All I can tell you is that this morning….I woke up just wanting to remember the good times. I woke up wanting to remember Kev & I’s fresh start HERE in America. I want to come home next week from Winnipeg, with all this medical equipment and junk GONE because THOSE are not the memories of Kevin. Yes, they are fresh, so of course that seems all consuming to me now. But Kevin LIVED for those 4 months greater than anyone you and I have ever known. It just so happened we had some extra baggage to carry along during that trial. And that baggage needs to go, because I just want to remember Kev for Kev. Not for the tubes, and wires, and patches, and sterilization, and hospitals, and doctors and nurses and chemo. And that’s even all of it. THAT is not Kev. I just want to Keep it Kevin.
So, Keep it Kevin today with me. And don’t forget to vote for your fresh start!