Speaking to a friend about this..I just wanted to share my thoughts with you all on this process I am going through.
I want you all to know how truly grateful I feel to have the life I have, and especially, to have the life I did. I was given something absolutely amazing, that few people find in their lifetime: their true soulmate. I was given the chance to love and be loved further beyond what I could ever have dreamed in any fairytale. When I met Kevin, I honestly felt like it was a dream. I didn’t believe that such a handsome, strong, loving man could love a chubby short girl like he did. I was always waiting for the floor to drop out from under me.
But he showed me what true love was like, and how pure and ecstatic it could be. He gave me the chance to feel emotions I never felt before, and to express them. And in the past 4 months, he showed me a strength, a will, and a love that I never saw before, in anyone.
He gave me a new life. And now, he gave me another new life. As much as I don’t want this gift, I would give anything to have it back, it’s something I have to accept and receive. With love. And I do. I grieve him unbelievably, but I know that there is a reason I have a new life ahead of me. I want to make the most of that, and I never want to take this for granted.
I am blessed.