Trusting my Decision

I realized today that I really suck at make decisions on my own.  I can’t just speak out “YES” or “NO” without seeking further input on a decision.  Maybe it’s because I’ve been known to be too spontaneous for my own good.  Or because I’m fearful that I’ll make the wrong decision, so at least I can fall back on the others and feel that I sought out all the information I could at the time.

As I emailed friends and family this morning about the overwhelming feelings I have about working multiple jobs, I know deep down this is a decision I need to make, but with a plan.  Not just a career decision, but a faith decision.  Trusting not only in myself, but in something higher to guide my path even if I feel I’ve made the wrong decision.  Trusting that I will be provided for.  Trusting that doors will open when the timing is right.

Trust.  Decisions.  Both things I am not so good at.

I constantly worry about being assumed lazy, inadequate, or not doing enough.  I don’t know what I need to do to prove to myself that I have never been any of the above?  How often do I need to open doors to feel overwhelmed before I see that I am doing all I can and beyond what I should?

How do you?

Brenda Sieglitz

Brenda Lee Sieglitz is an author and public speaker whose topics focus on travel, grief, and nature. Widowed in 2008 at 24 years of age, Brenda is an advocate for sarcoma patients, the widowed community, and conservation through her volunteerism with the National Park Service, Lancaster County Conservancy, Pennsylvania Master Naturalist, Hospice of Lancaster County, Soaring Spirits International, Angiosarcoma Awareness and Highmark Caring Place. Brenda won the 2009 Associated Content “Content of the Year” award, and in 2011 was named one of Wyndham Women’s “Women on their Way”. Most recently her love and loss memoir, Ebb from the Shoreline, won 1st Place Editor’s Choice in Nonfiction at the 2014 North American Book Awards. Sieglitz holds a degree in business and became a Pennsylvania Master Naturalist in 2015. In her spare time, she adores playing with her two nieces, going on family adventures with her husband, stepdaughter and son-in-law, hiking, camping and is working to complete her bucket list dream of visiting all National Park units. Sieglitz has been married to her best friend Dave since 2013 and continues to reside in Lancaster County with their two beagles Scotch and Fina.

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Comments 2

  1. Carol November 29, 2011

    Hi again Brenda,
    How could you ever not trust your decisions? Just look at the wonderful choice you made in marriage. I just read yours and Kevin’s story and am so impressed with your strength! How blessed you are to have had such a love. Trust yourself, but most of all trust
    Abba(daddy)Father. As long as nothing is pressing, don’t get in a hurry with your decision, and, yes it is very wise to seek counsel from others.
    This I know for sure, God does not intend for us to be so overworked that we are stressed and worn out on a regular basis. When I am at my busiest and stressed out I know he calls to me to stop and rest in Him so that I can hear Him.
    Blessings (and REST) to you,
    Carol

  2. Anne Summertree November 29, 2011

    This site is helpful for women whose marriage is in crisis . When you are threatened with your marriage breaking up it feels like your life has suddenly come to an end particularly if you you didnt see it coming. This advice helps

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