I’m feeling overwhelmed this morning. Just the compacting of EVERYTHING. New job, my back problems, moving, and my 2nd anniversary are WOWZA. Thankfully my new, secondary employer is flexible and agreed to give me until Friday to start. I just need that time to pack, get organized, recuperate with my back, and get through the 2nd anniversary. I know she’s a bit disappointed at not getting me trained asap, but I mentally can’t handle starting tomorrow with the 2nd anniversary and the move and back issues. It’s just too much all at once, and I need to take care of myself first and foremost.
One of my facebook friends shared this chapter of the bible in his status this mornign. I’ve been feeling very spiritually disconnected, and wow…this really laid out what’s been on my heart:
1 How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
3 Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
4 my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,”
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
5 But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
6 I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.
…please lift me up in your thoughts and prayers. My brain can’t wrap itself around all that’s going on. I just need to breathe deeply and take care of myself. I’m looking forward to some normalcy-finally being moved and getting unpacked in my new place. Getting whatever I can’t bring with me organized and sorted so that it’s all in one area, and I can find it easily. Just getting LIFE organized. I’m sick of the disarray of my life right now. For once, I’m looking forward to plain old boring 9-5 type things. *shrugs*. I guess I think I’ve just had way too much excitement in the past year, and it’s time to just be.