..through another day that is. This morning was just undeniably rough. I crawled back in bed after reading the obit, and just wept and thought about all the things I miss about Kev. I just couldn’t get going. Around 11, Joni and Bethany came over, and we ate lunch until we headed out to go shopping for my outfit for the service.
For once in my life, it wasn’t a fun trip. Not to mention, it wasn’t an occasion I wanted to shop for, but also because I couldn’t find ANYTHING that fit/looked/good or even many dresses. So, finally, after about 3 hours, I found a very pretty teal dress that I feel pretty in. It has spunk, and I know Kevin would love it. I just REFUSE to wear all black for this. It’s a life celebration and I want to celebrate Him…I am mourning him enough right now.
We did get some good things accomplished today, and I got my engagement ring and Kevin’s wedding ring back from the jeweler. Ironically, I had sent them to get re-sized last week as an early Christmas gift for Kev. It’s a sad irony, but now I get to wear BOTH shiny rings and keep his constant love around my finger.
We also finally found a place for the Winnipeg Wake. It will be held next Sunday, November 9th, at the conservatory at Assiniboine Park. Kevin would have LOVED it. He took me to the pavilion at Assiniboine Park the first time I was up in Winnipeg for New Year’s Eve. It’s just such a beautiful area. I am not sure all the details yet, but keep that day open please.
Pray I get all the details finished for the service on Sunday by tonight so I can just enjoy the time with my family right now. I plan to fly up to Winnipeg with Linda and Ken on Wednesday evening and stay until the following Monday.
Also pray for a possible job interview I got a call about. It’s an excellent opportunity, but they are not willing to arrange it for when I will still be here, even though they know about the current situation I am in. It’s very frustrating, and if they are not willing to work around THIS for the interview, it’s just not worth it. What a shame if it doesn’t.
Thank you all for your continued prayers and support…
Be assured – you are not alone!!! You’re grief is overwhelming, I would think but you are being thought about, prayed for and loved.
When I think of you I keep remembering the verse from the Psalms… “the Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit”… peace be yours tonight.
I hope we get the chance to meet you and say Hello at Kevin’s wake..Be proud that you got through the day-one step at a time 🙂