I don’t know if it’s Irony or what. But today Kevin will be buried in the same cemetary as the church we were married in. My funeral dress is currently hanging off of my wedding dress (as we moved in with my parents, and the dress never got put away). The same pastors who married us and gave their blessing are the ones celebrating Kevin’s life today.
It’s just so hard. It’s a day I don’t want to believe is here. It is a day that I don’t want to be a part of because I know how hard it will be. It is a day I just cannot bear. This is just too hard.
The shock is here, and I cannot believe this is happening. I hate it. I really do hate it.
I miss you so much Kevin.