It’s a Raw Deal

This whole week, just everything leading up the holidays, all feels very rough and raw. I love being with friends, and family, but I’m having a hard time swallowing life without Kevin. Everytime I think of it, it just absorbs any happiness I’m feeling. It sucks!

I thought, being 2 months past, that I’d at least have some coping, but not really. I just have no good way to deal with the moments when I realize he’s not coming back. That’s going to take a very long time.

First Christmas without Kev: Done. Thank God.

Now, onto New Years, starting my new job, doing my taxes early, applying for financial aid, meeting with my school advisor about looking into a major change (looking deeply into Nuclear Medicine Technician-I’ll post more about this later), superbowl (GO STEELERS), our 3rd anniversary on February 3rd, living life, Kevin’s birthday on April 7th..and then what? Lots of things in between there to deal with…I’m just stressed.

But I’ll get through. Keep praying for my sanity, and that I can find some time to focus on writing this book. I really want to delve into it.

Love you all…praying for your Christmastime to be special and lovely.

BIG SHOUT OUT: Congrats to Laura and Stu on their engagement. I’m so happy for you both!

Brenda Sieglitz

Brenda Lee Sieglitz is an author and public speaker whose topics focus on travel, grief, and nature. Widowed in 2008 at 24 years of age, Brenda is an advocate for sarcoma patients, the widowed community, and conservation through her volunteerism with the National Park Service, Lancaster County Conservancy, Pennsylvania Master Naturalist, Hospice of Lancaster County, Soaring Spirits International, Angiosarcoma Awareness and Highmark Caring Place. Brenda won the 2009 Associated Content “Content of the Year” award, and in 2011 was named one of Wyndham Women’s “Women on their Way”. Most recently her love and loss memoir, Ebb from the Shoreline, won 1st Place Editor’s Choice in Nonfiction at the 2014 North American Book Awards. Sieglitz holds a degree in business and became a Pennsylvania Master Naturalist in 2015. In her spare time, she adores playing with her two nieces, going on family adventures with her husband, stepdaughter and son-in-law, hiking, camping and is working to complete her bucket list dream of visiting all National Park units. Sieglitz has been married to her best friend Dave since 2013 and continues to reside in Lancaster County with their two beagles Scotch and Fina.

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