Verse 1
It was two weeks after the day she turned 18
all dressed in white, going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat,
six pence in her shoe
something borrowed something *blue*
and when the church doors opened up wide she put her veil down trying to hide the tears oh
she just couldn’t believe it
she heard the trumpets from the military band and the flowers fell out of her hands

Chorus
Baby, why’d you leave me, why’d you have to go
I was counting on forever, now I’ll never know
I cant even breathe
It’s like I’m, looking from a distance, standing in the background
Everybody’s saying, he’s not coming home now,
This can’t be happening to me
This is just a dream

Verse 2
The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
lord please lift his soul and heal this hurt
then the congregation all stood up and sang the saddest song that she ever heard
then they handed her a folded up flag and
she held on to all she had left of him oh and what could’ve been
and then guns rang one last shot and it felt like a bullet in her heart

Chorus
Baby, why’d you leave me, why’d you have to go
I was counting on forever, now I’ll never know
I can’t even breathe
It’s like I’m, looking from a distance, standing in the background
Everybody’s saying, he’s not coming home now,
This can’t be happening to me
This is just a dream

Baby, why’d you leave me, why’d you have to go
I was counting on forever, now I’ll never know
Ohh i’ll never know
It’s like I’m, looking from a distance, standing in the background
Everybody’s saying, he’s not coming home now,
This can’t be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh this is just a dream
just a dream, ya [fading out]

Now to share….it’s obvious why this song has touched my heart. It’s talking about a military widow, but frankly, it’s talking all about loss of our husband. Tonight, when Carrie Underwood sang this song during the Country Music Awards, I broke. At the same time, a ticker ran at the bottom of the screen declaring some problems with North Korea, as well as the passing of Catherine Baker-Knoll, the lieutenant governor of Pennsylvania. Catherine Baker Knoll was at Hopkins at the same time that Kevin passed. It just broke me to hear of her passing from cancer. My thoughts and prayers are with their family.

Today was ok. I visited Kevin’s gravesite for the first time since the burial, to place the Canadian flag. It was understandably hard, but something I needed to do now, or it could have been something I may never be able to do. Reality smacks me in the face sometimes when I realize that he truly is gone. That I have lost something amazing. I miss you Kev….

I did get a nice trail hike in by the Pinnacle, and spent the evening with wonderful friends. I have such an amazing support system. Thank you for that. I loved the BEAUTIFUL (and I cannot describe just how beautiful they are) bouquet of purple flowers I received from the Harnish family. They just lit up my day, and now are sitting on my computer desk for me to see every morning when I awake. So lovely. I just love beautiful flowers.

Thank you all for your support, and continue to lift me up as I struggle through the bitter reality. Faith, family, friends. I love you all.