Why?

Many times throughout my life, I have asked the question “Why?”. It’s a simple, one word question that so many of us raise at many different points for different reasons. It seems so simple, but it’s such a powerful question that oftentimes cannot be answered in any form. Thats whaat makes it so very frustrting. SO FRUSTRATING.

Despite how many times I can tell myself that I will probably NEVER know the answer until I get to heaven, it doesn’t make me want to ask that question any less. Why would I be chosen for this? Why was Kevin chosen to be taken so young? Why did our marriage only last 3 years?…so many questions, and NEVER enough answers.

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This weekend was really nice. I had a great time skiing, and I was amazed I didn’t break anything. However, we only lasted in Wellsboro, Pa before they started calling for a foot of snow and we decided to leave before we would get snowed in. Disappointing to say the least, but we had a fun time “escaping” for the weekend.

Im thinking more and more about life….I’ve been given the opportunity to live this summer in Seattle to house-sit while a friend is on a navy deployment, and I am highy considering it. I have no cue how to work my job, school, and all those decisions I want to make, but this would be a great opportunity to just travel in the west, have a place to stay, and not be “stuck” anywhere. Again, my goals to not commit to anyting big for 1 year. I was already planning a road trip west during the summer, and this would just make it an extension. I’d take some time to visit friends in Montana, California, Manitoba, and maybe even BC and Alaska. Big decision to make, but I want to make it soon so i can plan properly. Pray for me as I think more about it….

so…the question of my life, is why? And now….why not?

Brenda Sieglitz

Brenda Lee Sieglitz is an author and public speaker whose topics focus on travel, grief, and nature. Widowed in 2008 at 24 years of age, Brenda is an advocate for sarcoma patients, the widowed community, and conservation through her volunteerism with the National Park Service, Lancaster County Conservancy, Pennsylvania Master Naturalist, Hospice of Lancaster County, Soaring Spirits International, Angiosarcoma Awareness and Highmark Caring Place. Brenda won the 2009 Associated Content “Content of the Year” award, and in 2011 was named one of Wyndham Women’s “Women on their Way”. Most recently her love and loss memoir, Ebb from the Shoreline, won 1st Place Editor’s Choice in Nonfiction at the 2014 North American Book Awards. Sieglitz holds a degree in business and became a Pennsylvania Master Naturalist in 2015. In her spare time, she adores playing with her two nieces, going on family adventures with her husband, stepdaughter and son-in-law, hiking, camping and is working to complete her bucket list dream of visiting all National Park units. Sieglitz has been married to her best friend Dave since 2013 and continues to reside in Lancaster County with their two beagles Scotch and Fina.

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Comments 3

  1. Christine January 10, 2009

    Why? I ask myself the same question all the time.

  2. Mandie January 10, 2009

    Bren,
    If you didn’t have it before, I know by reading through your thoughts in the last two months, what a keen perspective you now have on “life and death”. We all have the knowledge of life as mortal and there will come a day when we will no longer be here, but you are now so keenly aware of that-probably every second-and it’s bringing forth this “new life” in you in a way. That being said, this chance to take these trips, travel to all kinds of places-is a great way for you to get out there and live. As you said, why not?, and I think you know why you are asking that-because you of all people know how precious this life here on earth actually is.

  3. Patty January 10, 2009

    Amen to Mandie’s words!!!
    patty

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