I have not envied myself in well over a year. It was a line I typed today-one of those “wow” lines. I’ve lost a lot, learned much, succeeded little it feels like, and am back in a “normal” life admist abnormal circumstances. Not exactly thrilling is it?
As I come upon the 1.5 months until the 1 year sadversary of Kevin’s passing, I notice my blogging and writing is less and less. I feel like I’m still dealing with a lot of grief issues as I approach things I haven’t done in so long. I am learning that my tools for dealing with life and pretty rough, and need sharpened.
I wonder what’s going to happen in the future with my career, my dreams, love, ambition, travel, family, everything. What happens from here?