Talking to a friend online last night, I realized that I probably have an openness that most people don’t. I don’t have the ticker working anymore that shows me how many people look at the site each day, but so far the highest was around 2400 different people in 1 day. Insane. So, that means, my thoughts, viewpoints, and just the story has been shared with as many as 2400 people a day. Wow. I guess that’s an openness!
I like sharing with you my life, our life, our journey. It keeps things in perspective for me, and as I said before, has been more than therapeutic. My thoughts are, if this can help someone else, GREAT.
I have had a good 24 hours. Yesterday I kind of lounged around the house after finally falling asleep at 4am. The bond movie was LATE (or early!), and then I stayed up a few more hours. So, took advantage of sleeping in. Then, I met Joni for a little retail therapy, and then joined her at a friends house for a jewelry party with the girls. It was a good time, and nice to be around new people.
My new laptop arrived yesterday. I don’t know if I posted this before, but I found an AMAZING deal on this TINY TINY laptop (it’s only 9″), that Kurt suggested for me. It was cheap, and it does the simple things I need it to do: write, blog, email, internet, music. Fun! It’s very exciting to work on. It’s literally the size of a paperback book. It’s the perfect coffee shop writers laptop.
Yesterday I had a bit of a downer, when I got a message that Willow Valley (where I interviewed earlier this week) was still looking for the position and I would hear something in 1-2 weeks. From their initial information, they said I would know the next day. So, I’m assuming that none of us were qualified or fit into the position, so they’ll continue to interview. I was a bit disappointed, but also kind of excited. As I said before, I’m scared to go back to work so soon, and I think this is God telling me to take the time I need. I did put out some more applications and resumes earlier this week, so we’ll see if they come to fruition.
Since I won’t be starting a new job anytime soon, I’ve decided it’s time to take a much needed vacation! I have close friends in San Francisco and Seattle who have offered up their homes to me. So, it is confirmed that the friend in Seattle is a-ok with my stay, and I am still waiting to confirm with my firend in San Fran, but I don’t see it being a problem. The plan tickets from Phila-San Fran-Seattle-Phila are A STEAL. Seriously, I couldn’t get INTO THE JEEP for as cheap as they are. Haha. I am quite excited. I plan to take the laptop with, get some focus, work on some creativity, and visit some cool places. I have been to San Fran, but almost 7 years ago, and only for 2 or 3 days. I’m excited to do more exploring there. And, despite living just a few hours away, I never got to see Seattle. So, I am very excited and I hope it all works out. I think I”ll be away from early December to mid-december for this trip. I really really hope it works out.
I am doing pretty well..I haven’t had any breakdowns in 24 hours..to be honest, my mind hasn’t really processed Kevin’s passing in that time either. As I said, it comes and goes. Overall, I know Kevin wants me to be happy, to have fun, to LIVE. He was so adament about that while he was sick to, in making time to see friends and family and do things that were fun once in a while. I know he would want that for me now. Sometimes it just stinks having to do things by myself, that I would have loved to share with him. In fact, ALL TIMES it stinks to do those things by myself. But I know Kevin wouldn’t want me to give any of those things up, because I loved them, and he loved them. It just helps me cherish those times all the more.
Thank you for your continued prayers and awesome support. I hope you all have an amazing weekend. Be glad in the moment…as hard as it may be.
This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.