Last night I attended The Table community church. My friend told me was that it was dessert night, and being that I know so many people that go there, I thought it would be a nice way to re-introduce myself back into church again. Since Kevin has been sick, I haven’t been to church. I don’t know where I feel connected anymore, so I’m just exploring right now.
There truly is a purpose for all things. I sat at the table with my close friend, and thought I was about halfway back from the front stage. When I heard talking, I realized I ws DIRECTLY in front of the side podium where the pastor was standing. Whoa.
He began to pray, and prayed for all those going through tragic and difficult circumstances. He had seen me sit down, and prayed specifically for my journey. I was crying, but at the same time, it felt so encouraging. The sermon last night was based on the story called “Epic”. I wasn’t sure how it would go, since I hadn’t been there for the entire series, and I hadn’t read the book. Then the pastor said it was going to be about The Road Ahead, the next journey in life, the next chapter.
If you’ve been following the blog, you’ll know that one of the big questions that I’ve been asking myself, is what’s next. Why? What does the road ahead hold for me???
The entire sermon spoke to me. It helped me realize that even though we don’t know what lies ahead, with our faith in God, we can be as prepared as possible. With faith, God will guide us through the many chapters ahead. We don’t know what our story line will be, but with faith, we can trust God that there IS a plan, and we just don’t know it yet.
I’m scared for my next chapter…I never believed the rest of my life chapters would be without Kev. I still don’t want to believe that they are without him, but again, I don’t have a choice in the matter. The chapter ahead is gonna be a rough one, but I trust in God to lead me.